Story of My Life

Before the storm

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 06:57:33 GMT

This may be my last journal before the coming of the busy season. I have three more ACS trainings, five more for bootcamp and a hell lot for IFRS web based learning.

I'm feeling sleepy.

I've been having less than 6 hours of sleep everyday, and when I feel sleepy and I try to sleep, I just can't seem to. Its probably because I'm in the office and there are lots of people here rushing to have their June 30 accounts finished by today, or tomorrow, or early Monday while I on the other hand, attend my trainings and go home as early as 7 PM(2:30 PM SGV time). Yes I should be getting enough sleep but I choose to play with my SIM--have the bastard sleep with every girl he meets. Boring. Really.

I really feel sleepy.

Our training group has three days left to become the top group and be treated to dinner by the sponsor partner to anywhere we want. Unfortunately another group tries to score in every question laid out to everyone in the class--they try to steal the answer whenever they have the chance--and even consume the measliest of points. C'mon man! They lead us already by 100++ points!! And we're placed second!

Oh well, time for frisbee!

Reality's a 'pane' in the ass..

Fri, 27 Jul 2007 03:38:25 GMT

THere's just too many people in this world.

Too many people--with different ideas, different philosophies, different outlook in life.

You can only be with those that have similar attributes as you, but then that's only a small portion of the whole population on this planet.

Whose ideologies are correct? WHose morals should govern? Why is the world a canvass for abstract art?

SO I'd rather look at the plain blue sky. Because when I look down, I can't seem to appreciate the beauty of God's creativity..

Cruel, cruel, cruel

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 11:55:56 GMT

Way to go to raise employee morale.

Very nice. Very, very nice.

All I wanted was a fucking 4 day vacation dammit, a FUCKING FOUR-DAY VACATION!!

Message sending failed

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 05:40:15 GMT

I browsed crimelibrary.com and I read about this 'urge to kill' that murderers have.

Is it really that strong, to draw a person to do something so evil--like gravity pulling when you look down a hundred feet from the ground, only a thin glass protecting you from a gruesome demise.

Just like opening that sametime (chat) window of your boss and typing all sorts of profanities in your IM.

Haven’t you felt that urge.. to just press that Send button?

Wag kang slacker!!

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 06:40:20 GMT

"Oi akin na yang bente ko!!" hiyaw ni Dodong habang hinahabol si Boyet sa isang madilim na iskinita.

"Ulul mu!" sigaw pabalik ni Boyet na may kasamang tawa na para bang sinasabing di siya mahahabol.

At pano nga naman, dose anyos na siya at di hamak na mas mahaba ang mga binti kumpara kay Dodong na anim na taong gulang pa lamang--mula nang sila ay magkita sa ilalim ng tulay sa may Quiapo.

Bago makalabas ng iskinita ay tumigil sa takbo itong si Boyet, nagtalsikan ang itim na putik at tubig ulan mula sa kanyang mga paa. Lumingon siya pabalik kay Dodong itinaas ang kanang kamay na humahawak sa lukut-lukot, mamasa-masa at nangingitim na bente pesos. Binuklat niya and salapi at winagayway na parang bandilang nakatayo sa harapan ng nagkukumahos na bata.

BUmagal hanggang sa napatigil sa takbo si Dodong; tama lang ang layo mula kay Boyet kung sakali mang subukan siyang sapakin nito. Alam niyang pinaglalaruan lang siya't pinahahabol. Magsasawa rin naman si Boyet, at mamamaga na naman ang mga pisngi niya.

Pero di pa rin niya makukuha ang pera.

Tumingin siya sa kanan, sa kaliwa, hanggang matagpuan ng kanyang mga mata ang isang baku-bako at magaspang na bato na tatlong beses ang laki sa kanyang kamao. Lumuhod siya sa ibabaw ng mamasa-masa pang aspalto at pinulot ang bato gamit ang kanyang kanang kamay.. hindi kaya. Nilapat niya ang kanyang kaliwang kamay sa ilalim ng bato at buong pwersa itong hinatak pataas. "Akin na yan!" sigaw niya na banaag ang inis at hirap sa pagbubuhat ng mabigat na bato.

"Hahaha!" ang sagot ni Boyet. "Aba ang angas mo a, tangina ka baka gusto mong palamon ko sayo yan!"

Napaurong si Dodong ng onti pero para ipakitang di siya natatakot ay binuhat niya hanggang sa kanyang mga balikat ang bato. kinunot ang noo at humakbang ng kaunti paharap. "Ibabato ko to sayo!" banta niya pero tinawanan lang siya uli ni Boyet at mas pinaigting pa ang wagayway ng salapi. "Pambibili mo lang yan ng plastik e!" daing ni Dodong pabalik.

"Gago! Ikaw lang gumagawa nun tanga!" Sagot ni Boyet habang dinuduro si Dodong.

Hmm..

Sun, 20 May 2007 08:37:09 GMT

It's been a long time since I last posted in my journal, its either tinatamad ako or sobra lang talagang wala na kong oras para gumawa pa ng iba. Masyado na kong preoccupied sa buhay that i've already forgotten how it is to be with just myself.. Kaya nga eto nagsusulat uli ako ng journal kasi sandamakmak na naman ang masusulat ko.

I went back and browsed my journals, grabe sobra ko talagang lovestruck noon, haha sobrang naghahanap, although I know for myself na isa lang ang hinahanap ko noon talaga and unfortunately I wont be seeing her again for the longest time, siguro na lang kung owner na rin ako ng condo at business associates kami pero by then either Im dead or I already have three children, 2 boys 1 girl.

Yep, you heard me right, kung dati I write about love, how its found and lost and found again, ngayon I'm beginning to think about my future. Grabe in just two years time from my last journal entry (take note this is not accounting related), tumanda na pagiisip ko. Sorry di ko kasi masabing mature na ko, kasi may mga kapalpakan pa rin naman akong ginagawa na parang bata. Pero I assure you whoever you are who's reading this, Ive become old. Nga lang this is also attributed to the fact that I'm still a slave in SGV.

And of course I wouldnt be planning for my future without a loving wife. Di ko naman masasabi na siya na talaga (andaming pwedeng mangyare at ayaw ko rin batiin). But I guess, being together for more than a year is enough to know na papunta na rin kami sa stage na yun. And I can't be any happier.

She's also the reason why I've stopped writing my journals. Nope, I'm not saying its a bad thing. Actually it is really a positive sign that Im no longer searching for peace of mind, because if you would notice (or if you have the time to look at all of my journals) most of my journals are about desperation, hate, loss.. Mga poems ko actually cling to a single theme--Hoping for love--pathetic as it may sound. But now I'm happy, I'm satisfied, and Im complete.

Anyway I guess that's it for now. I plan to watch sine with her later, hehe. Shrek3!!

Oh, and another thing, tumanda na rin pala mga barkada ko--I rarely see them in YM (though I myself rarely checks in). Mga chong, nasan na kayo (or nasan na ba ako, ako ba ang nawawala? hahah). God bles sa inyo!

Pringol!!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 05:19:56 GMT

Shyet, once you pop you can't stop..

..crying!

Tanginang mga senti to..

hihi

Thu, 04 May 2006 00:15:38 GMT

Malapit na ulit mag 7.. Sayang lang its a Sunday..

Church date would be nice, hehehehe, kidding.

Sabay tigil Formula

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 17:26:38 GMT

Everything was fast-tracked..
Ganon lang kabilis, natalo pa ang space-time warp ni Shaider
Ang saya dati ngayon bakit ang pait
..sabi nila ang bilis kasi

siguro nangarap lang ako
noong nangangarap ako na magkasama tayo
bakit ang dati'y klaro ngayo'y ang labo
..sabi nila ang bilis kasi

Ang bilis kasi
ng oras, ng panahon, ng buhay
di namamalayan na ang oras
di pala gumagalaw

Sumabay lang ba tayo sa paghinto ng mundo?

Shete

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 14:39:45 GMT

Shete.. Shete talaga.. hahahahaha!

THere's always the first time for everything.

Shete..

Dahon

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 04:56:44 GMT

Parang kangkungan di dapat nagpadala
at mainis sa sarili sa ginawa
kangkungan lang kangkungan kahit saan
kangkungan sapul sa simula

Masarap ang kangkong masarap talaga
lalo na pag may asukal at gata
at kahalong patis at suka
lagyan mo na rin ng toyo't alipunga

Kankungan nagulantang sa wala
Kangkong na lang tinitiis nginunguya
Kangkong na masarap pilit na iniluluwa
Kangkungan na lang sa wala

Kangkong

huh?

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 03:48:24 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Bullshet

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 13:25:30 GMT

I remember this poem that we had back in highschool CAT:

When things go wrong,as they sometimes will.
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill.
When the funds are low,and the debts are high.
And you want to smile,but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must,but don't you quit.

Life is strange with it's twist and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow.
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out.
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you can never tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when your hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst
That you must not quit.

Saka ito pa mas malupet:

1. Act first before you complain..

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...
...

and so on pero eto mas importante sa lahat.

Kamusta?

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 12:44:09 GMT

Eto sabog. . .

Kakatapos lang ng trabaho ko so sabog..

Gusto ko gumimik pero di ko magawa..

Gusto ko matulog pero di ko magawa...

Gusto ko magresign pero di ko magawa...

Nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa...

Happy Friday the 13th..

Monthsary

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 01:19:01 GMT

O kay bilis ng oras
Di ko namalayan
ISang Buwan na Pala
Nang ako ay maghangad
Na ika'y makasama/makayakap

SA araw at gabi
Sa tuwa at pighati
Mga luha lang ang nakiramay sa kin

Isang bwuan na pala
akong nagdaramdam
Akong namaalam
ISang buwan na palang nagsisisi
Di ko man lang namalayan
sa gitna na lungkot at kabiguan
isang buwan na pala...(3x)
Isang buwan na kong sawi

Maniniwala pa ba sa tadhana?

Before a new chapter begins..

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 20:36:11 GMT

Una
by Sponge Cola

Muli nanamang umihip sa akin
Ang hangin ng pag-iisa
Liwanag kang daglingsumilaw sa’king
Mga matanilingon

Sinusundan
Dumdalas ang minsan
Ika’y nar’yan
Abot tanaw
Kahit walang dahilan

Maiiwasan ba
Ang bawat sandalingika’y laman ng isip ko
[maiiwasan bang]
ngayo’y lilipas na nang hindi kita nasisilayan
magkamali sayo
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
[maiiwasan bang]
lalung mahulog sa’yo

walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong nilikha
putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala
sa pagkaakit
nananalangin
at umaasa

Curse of the Living Dead

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 12:30:18 GMT

And my world is getting smaller
every minute and every hour
with every look that you give me
so sour that it degrades me
It's simple yet complicated
so easy to understand
you have no clue nor idea
and how dare you reprimand

How I wish I can move let me out
If this is wonderland then I want out

F*ck YOU and F*ck ME, this is insanity
Shame on you Shame on Me oh dear vanity?
F*ck your pride and F*ck your glory
F*ck YOU and F*ck ME!

First Impressions Last..
You get what you see..
Yes It'll be your last impression of me
Coz now I don't give a sh*t.
And this is what you'll see.
This is what you want to see in me!

Pasko

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 15:31:27 GMT

Merry Christmas to all

I have your face for myself
And I'm the happiest man in the world
because everybody loves you
but I have you for my own

At least your smile for my own..

=(

BASTED, OR NOT BASTED?

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 12:02:26 GMT

Sometimes di mo rin kami masisisi kung makulit kami..

HIndi namin alam kung tutuloy pa kami o hinde. Pag di kami sinabihan ng diretsahan ng babae na basted na kami itutuloy lang namin yun lalo na pag gustong-gusto namin yung girl. Kung di masabi ng babae na basted na kami dahil sa hiya, takot, (stimulation? nangyayare ba yun?) at talagang todo iwas na lang ang ginagawa hindi rin kami susuko kasi iisipin namin nagpapakipot lang. KUng sabihan naman kami na basted na kami, iisipin namin: "baka gusto lang neto friends muna kami," or "baka mabilis lang," or "sa sobrang aroused niya di niya nasabi tunay niyang damdamin." OR.. IT's JUST A TEST..

Pero ang bottomline di kami maconvince agad.. Ang masakit nun we had to make sure dahil ayaw namin magsisi sa huli. Na baka test lang pala. Baka mabilis lang. Baka na-aroused masyado. Baka.. at marami pang baka na sana "cow" na lang ang ibig sabihin para wala nang pag-iisipan pa.

F.or the F.irm

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 06:54:26 GMT

Forever FF (Fuck the Firm)!

Andito ako sa office nagtrabaho ng onti. As in.. ONTI talaga.

Natry ko na kanina Doom 3. Naknantutsa NAKAKAGULAT! Nasa computer shop pa ko nun a. Cool graphics and audio grabe feel na feel mong ikaw yung character dun sa game. Kung di lang talaga malaki ang requirements e..

Back to work pa ba? Lintek kasi tong mga tao dito sa office work pa rin SABADO! HANEP FF!

What My Boss Didn't Tell You

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 11:41:04 GMT

-MASIWALAT-

Nakatingin sa’yong mukha
Hunyango ang sayo’y nakaharap
Ang iyong ngiting di maawat
Sa’kiy tandang di tapat

Sinag ng iyong bukas na inaasam
Ramdam ang init ng liwanag
Walang muwang sa aking salang-alang
Init pala’y naksusunog na liyab

Pagkat sa’yong ngiting di maawat
Sa aking mukha’y isang sampal
Ng lihim mong iwan saki’y latay
Bukas pag sinag mo’y kupas na

Pangarap ko sa Buhay

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 11:35:59 GMT

Heart Evangelista

Kung ang Mayonnaise ay may Jopay

At si Chito ay may _________

Pag ako naman ang sumikat

Siya ang aking gusto..

Yung nasa billboards araw-araw,

tanaw ko sa MRT

Mga matang nagniningning

nagpupulahang mga pisngi

Binabantayan sa kanyang bawat palabas

Kabisado ko na nga ang single niyang walang kupas

And I, I wanna share my whole life with you
I wanna keep on dreaming dreams and with you
Make them all come true
As I lay inside your arms
And rest my head upon your shoulder
Believe me there's nothing that
I can't do whenever we're together

Refrain:

Pag ako sumikat liligawan kita

Magsama tayo sa billboards tayo lang dalawa

Like Aga and Sharleen and Richard is to Lucy

We make a perfect tandem you and me..

At araw-araw I’ll wish upon a star

Na ang awit na ito’y maabot ka from afar

Dahil pangarap ko’y abot- langit, pangarap ka

Sawa nang panoorin kang ngumiti na mag-isa!

36 Days

Sat, 19 Nov 2005 00:56:54 GMT

36 days na lang, pasko na naman..

Care to read my december journals? Pareho lang sasabihin ko siguro.

Walang nagbago for this Christmas. Wala.

Glorietta

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 14:40:08 GMT

Kanina sa Glorietta, Midnight sale.. Ang daming tao..

WAla akong nabili dahil wala na kong pera..

And due to an unexpected circumstance.. may nangyaring kakaiba today..

TIME IN: 10:39PM..

Yes, I would have to say the writings below is coherent with the situation.

Green Perennial

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 10:36:33 GMT

And you will never grow
With me about
You'll never bloom
I hinder your incarnation

Will I ever see you?
sway along with me
When you dont want to rise up
How can I coexist with you?

ANd time will tell
that when this grass withers
underneath your colorful stance
I will nourish you